I don’t know if anyone else has gone through this lately but I feel like I am riding a tsunami wave of emotion daily when it comes to this pandemic. I have posted before that my daughter is a Type 1 Diabetic so she’s in that higher risk category. That freaks me the F out. She just had her 16th birthday during all of this. That broke my heart. Of course I have promised that she gets to have the best of the best party as soon as we are able to.
Just sitting in the house day after day is maddening. I try not to listen to the news anymore. But that doesn’t stop the thoughts. Thoughts of if she was to get sick, she would be by herself in the hospital. Friends losing loved ones. Financial questions. Turning down a job because it was onsite at a hospital. Other job offers put on hold because the work was put on hold. Where do I go from here?
I am very much a “find the path forward” kind of person. I hate sitting idle, feeling stagnant. That drives me more mad than anything else. So I sit every day trying to find new ways to claw, scratch, pull myself forward. Today, it was coming here to get this crap out of my head. It’s a beautiful day outside so a walk will definitely happen. Making some no sew masks for B and me to help her anxiety. And then to look online to find some outdoor activities for the backyard. Any suggestions welcomed here!
Please everyone stay safe. And feel free to reach out to me if you need an ear. I promise to listen, not judge and keep it between us. We will all get through this. ❤